Realisation ...

Peeps ...

I realised that i am actually a person who's very afraid of - feelings - in particular ...

I - know - for sure that i do not want to be seriously attached to something/someone because i know that the higher my hopes the harder I fall ...

I know of people who spend one helluva time trying to get over a breakup and that period affects not only themseleves but also people around them ... besides i dun wanna even know how they tide over that period ... painful process huh ?

I do not see things the positive way like many others who do and get attached ... I tend to view it in a rather negative light ...

I was over at one of my classmate's place for a econs project and she had a really cute dog that was 7 years old ... however when I caught wind that that breed of dog only had an average lifespan of 12 years ... I said : "oh, means only 5 more years to go ..." of course i don't mean to be mean or insensitive but it really did come across to me that the dog was going to live for ONLY another 5 more years and then ... yeah u get it ... I don't wanna come across as mean ya noe ???

It's really hard to get me to open up and for someone to be considered a "close" friend of mine ... haz ... that person must have either went through a lot with me or "click-ed" with me at our first encounter ... it not haha ... the furthest our relationship would go would be at - FRIENDS -

so yeah ... jus thought i should pen a little part of myself down :p